The call of the Feminine, in Her Moon aspect, has been calling more frequently. Or perhaps it is that I am more willing to surrender to Her, at last. It has been apparent in conversations lately, that more people are speaking of the need to come within, to touch base into the inner quietude.
There is an understanding that we are a culture of going, doing and achieving. This has been a topic for me recently, just as it was brought to my attention years ago, that this was my mode of operation. That is until I found yoga, or rather it found me! It has taken me years though, even after opening to yoga, to take it from an intellectual understanding. An end to my resistance and the ability to drop down into a deeper knowing in heart and Soul, has been a huge part of my learning. I have never had a doubt that the consciousness and calling of the eternal Mother was trying to get my attention, but it took some untangling of the elements, which kept me in resistance.
I love being in the ecstatic states of creating, the awe of life, the inspirations always waiting around the corner! It seems we all love being in the full Light of the 'Solar Culture', as Christiana Northrup M.D. puts it. She was giving a lecture on PBS recently, for her new revised edition of 'Woman's Bodies,Woman's Wisdom'. I could feel the enthused state rising in me as she spoke about much that I hold dear. I experienced the energy of that enthusiasm growing, inspirations flowing, and the mind running. Unfortunately, it was also time for bed, if I was to be functional the following day! My attempt at meditation after that was a bit, well, frustrating. However, it brought some clarity into view.
She went on to bring attention to the need for the Moon aspect in us all, which aligned with some of what Thomas Moore writes in his book 'Care of the Soul'. This deep Soul work that is found in those quieter, internal times, out of the Sun and in the shadows of the Moon's light. The theme of what draws me most, unraveled itself into a Presence that has always been present. The only thing keeping me in and out of blindness, has been my ability to perceive beyond my 'preferences' for the Sun energy.
I don't believe I am alone in avoiding the deep shadows of Her light. When we look around our society, it is obvious what we gravitate towards. As mentioned prior, the external world, the Sun, activities, socializing and actualizing. This is part of what we are indeed here for, it is part of our nature, just as the Sun,it's fire and Father Sky. However, there is another half to this story. The other half of our nature is the Moon, the dark soil and deep oceans of MaMa Earth.
They each have their powers to bring life, healing and inspiration. When we live in both aspects equally, we walk this plane in balance and harmony. When we live in one or the other excessively, aspects of our being suffer. This dynamic wholeness has been given to us through out all of nature. Day and Night; Life and Death and it's seasons in between; Will and Surrender; Tension and Relaxation; Giving and Receptivity; Siva and Shakti; Yang and Yin. Yet we also have free will, and often times we choose one of the other, and the one applauded in our society is action, doing, going and achieving.
There is a depth that is missed, even as we accomplish and create wonders in this world. If we don't take time to balance the Sun and Moon in ourselves, we miss out on a deepening within. When do we reflect? Learn the lessons at Soul level? Connect to the subtle aspects of receptivity? When do we integrate? These are the places we have the opportunity to explore in LOTUS EMERGENCE ~ INSPIRED MOVEMENT OF THE SACRED.
I am sure for some, they can do all the above while in the Sun. Or maybe they need only a ray or two of the Moons beam. I have found for myself however, that the consensus of many great Maters holds the truth that speaks: "No one can see their reflection in running water. It is only in still water that we can see." This is a Taoist proverb, that holds to an honoring of the wisdom of the Feminine, of Her inner reflecting.
Maybe the reason more people are feeling this need to go within, is the call from the shift of consciousness upon us. The time of the is Feminine approaching. She is beginning to be heard through Her domain of Intuition. Not to make the Male obsolete, but so we can come into True partnership with one another, with nature, the Cosmos, but firstly, within ourselves.
What we find at Her watery depths, will not be discovered in the light of day. This may bring discomfort for some, but we can't ignore, that whatever is at those depths, is there whether we venture in and become conscious of it or not.
As I surrender more and more, I am finding a beautiful dance between the Ecstasies of Joy and the Deepening of Peace. There was a guilt I used to experience, because I resonate more strongly with the shadows of the Moon Beams. I had a belief that told me it was wrong to want to explore Her water and soils. This belief said I should want to be in the bright lights, running around in the rays of the Sun! This created a shadow of it's own in my psyche. When I finally surrendered, when I gave myself to Her, I found a new balance and a new dance, healing, and inner Truth. The lessons continue to be amazing and enlightening. Yes I share both the light of the Sun and the Moon, but I am always aware, She is the light that shines through my heart and Soul!
In Deep Peace~
