a new day dawns!

A new day dawns! Or we could say a new phase emerges. As I am back from my trip to see my teacher, Gurudev, Yogi Amrit Desai, I return with a renewed spirit! The previous months have been trying, yet, I applied what I have been taught and what experience has proven, and the rewards are present. Spending time with ones teacher always brings blessings, but the way we work with what Life offers, also brings opportunities for grace and blessings.

Just as I remained present with the healing processes, I brought the same presence to my walk this morning. Beauty was everywhere! The colors, the sky, the greener Catalina's, the songs of the birds. I had the pleasure of meeting two, sweet neighborhood pups ~ although one was certainly not quite as much a pup as the other!
I felt the wider capacity to embrace all of what was, with a more expansive heart and solid place of center!

And what does this mean to you and why do I choose to share these personal inner journeys? Well, I write first for myself. It is a continuation of my own self-awareness process and cultivation of deeper clarity. Second it is a way of sharing what I have been given. And third, as this work is my path of right livelihood, it is important to me that those who come to me as clients or students, realize that I teach and share what I have been shown on many levels of experience.

I can only share with others what I know. If you follow any of these entries, it may be clear that I don't share intellectual book learning information. This doesn't mean that I don't study ~ I do. In fact, it is one of my very favorite past times! However, both the intellectual and experiential realms co-exist. I can not help another on deep levels of transformation, unless I too, have traveled a similar road. There are too many subtleties that can be overlooked, if one only reads and dismisses the deep wisdom from within. The path I walk is what has been called 'depth practice'. Some of you, who know this way will understand what is meant. Others, there are little words to explain it until you are walking it. That being said, we can say it is a path of continuous transformation. Many cycles of being the catipillar and the butterfly in our human/spiritual evolution! We can not have the transformation with out some degree of cocoon!

Everything that I offer through Inner Journeys, comes from my teachers, my studies and my personal experience. I feel it is helpful and inspirational when I am aware of the experiences of others. It gives me a sense of trust, hope and encouragement to surrender to the spiritual unfolding of my own being. When I am struggling in a particular place and see that another has too, and has come through it, I know I can do the same. When I witness the transformation of another, I have faith in my own!

This new day dawning, for myself, is one more reminder that when we are moving through the underworld or being cocooned, for a period of time, even when it seems to be a LONG period of time, we do resurface! And that re-emergence is rich and vital in it's new perceptions, wisdom and Joy-filled alignment. All too often, without knowing that there will be a new day, many people don't give themselves to the purification, the death of what is necessary, in order to shine a brighter light. Some remain in the shade of the old, satisfied with what is familiar, even if uncomfortable. The unknown of the shedding of the old skin can be frightening, can feel like depression, and can reveal hidden grief and pain. But on a spiritual path, that is enlivened by the Souls guidance to evolve, we have to be willing to traverse these unknowns! Over time, experience bears out the Truth from the untruth of our perceptions. Experience cultivates trust in the processes.

This is why I write what I write. To encourage us all to keep on truckin' through Life's lessons and promptings. To expose the intimate, innate wisdom and expressions of the Divine's teaching, healing and transformational powers. I also send out assurance that we never have to travel completely alone. There are always those who have traveled ahead of us, from whatever point we are at, and I am oh! so grateful for all who have shown me the way!

Here's to embracing our journey as it shows up and to the Grace of the Divine!

In Light & Peace~

sacred days of fire

These days introduce a fire both in our Tucson summer and the purification of the internal realm. While this inner fire has seemed to be burning for months now, the fire has elevated my awareness into the presence of a Sacred Joy, regardless of the circumstances.

There is an enlivened teaching running through my being. It seems the dualities should not be living simultaneously, but reality is proving much different. A few months ago, I had some abnormal cells show up on an ovary. I wasn't surprised as I knew there was deep work needed in this energy center. Over the months, what has been revealed in this Sacred healing process has been profound! This work is innate to me, so I have intuitively listened to the inner guidance to inform me. As the months have passed, I have been shown and released much of what has been harbored away. I have ridden the flow of emotions and the karmic roots into past life glimpses, with non-attachment. However, wonder and amazement never cease as the Sacred is revealed in brighter and brighter splendor, as each dark cavern has been traversed!

This intensity has brought me into relationship with so many of my habitual reactions in my daily life. It has been as though sharpening the blade of my awareness, as each agitation or preference rises. The first experience slips by, in normal mode, to quickly be identified and examined. The second and maybe third visit, brings a blinding clarity as the behavior or reaction is sliced away. Consciousness is brought to meet the habitual interaction and the reaction is neutralized. The focus is honed and the fire of awareness is hot! It's as if these tendencies explode within, in one last round of sparks.

This practice brought into my days, my work situation, my relationships and this journey of healing the last several of months, has left me in a depth of an inner stillness, a deep quietude. I enter into contact with the Sacred, as each 'mundane' aspect is lifted, by bringing this honed consciousness to it. It is a Sacred moment, when the darkness meets the light. These qualities commune, the shadow dissipates, its work as a sacred teacher is complete. Freedom and Joy remains. This is not a loud, expressive, woo-hoo! joy. It is a Joy, that simply expands in this being and allows me to cultivate more space and Love for others.

And as more is burned away, even in the moments when the healing brings about elements of density, I am clear of the Joy that is always present. I began to be shown when I was identifying with the ribbons of sadness, shame, pain or fear. A voice whispered inwardly, "I am Joy and at Peace." I was mistaking the ribbons for the truth. Now, I allow the ribbons to fly away, and remember, "I am Joy and at Peace."

Gratitude always abounds in this journey for each valley and peak, for I know I am led, held, protected and purified when I go to these depths, which allows me to rise to the next peak. I have been traveling this path for awhile, and know 'I' am not doing this 'work'. I simply surrender to what is presented. I am brought deeper into my communions through the spiritual practices I have been led to. I meet Her in the quietude and She travels with me in the world, leading me into what is needed and when.

I don't turn away from the Sacred fire. Which is not to say it is never tempting or at it's worst,I may avoid it temporarily. Yet I am always brought back to wake up. It merges the life as a whole into the fabric of the Divine. The fire will help set me free, will bring me into greater Joy, Peace and ever deepening communion with the One. I am only just a babe in these woods. I follow the pathless path, yet I trust it is Divinely outstretched.

Although hardship is a part of this journey, it is also a part of life. It is a way in which we are taught, it is our duty to learn. But, more so, this is a path of intense Love, Grace and Peace.

In Joy and Peace~