"We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension and not in another; unevenly.
We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another.
The past, present and future all mingle and pull us backward, forward or fix us in the present.
We are made of layers, cells, constellations. "
Anais Nin
Relocating to a new city, a new life, has been no small task for me. Especially when much of it involves the unknown, pushing edges of comfort and new relationships, in both living and work environments. It seems for the past 5 months, any schedule I have had has been disrupted. From sleep, diet, exercise, meditation, keeping up with projects and phone calls to loved ones!
Now that we have moved into the new abode, I find my body and mind still need some down time periodically in between the new opportunities for work and getting back to my writing. The messages come through the body, asking for a nap here and there. Or maybe craving a new kind of nourishing food. The enjoyment of simply reading for fun and the desire to watch an extra movie or two. My past experience with this sort of integration has given me the confidence that my focus will return. I don't have to rush it or push it. When I do that, the action is dull and unfocused; the outcome muddled; the satisfaction fragmented.
It is one more opportunity to practice releasing the desire of ego to do, to prove, to create something simply for the sense of feeling busy. This is what I came up against today. I had my list prepared of what is in front of me to accomplish, however, this is what felt 'right & true' in the moment. Writing about this integration time. Acknowledging it and following the flow of what the moment called for. Just one more way to practice being in the realm of the feminine, her waters of nourishment and intuition and trust.
So, I hope you enjoy the new 'look' of the Inner Journeys blog and this short and sweet post.
Of course, more will come later as settling in occurs on all levels. As I was perusing quotes yesterday, I cam upon some by Anais Nin and remembered how much I appreciated her insights years ago. Her quote above felt particularly resonant for me today.
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