What an amazing year it has been!
What I love best about time markers such as New Year's and Birthdays, is the prompting of reflection that covers a span of time. It is the opportunity to peer through the hindsight visioning, recognize patterns, quietly receive the 'what is', and consciously open to the 'what may be.'
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Rev.Shiloh McCloud |
2012 has been a one of the best rides in years. It has been a ride that has called me out into the world more fully than can be remembered in, well . . . a very long time! I have so much gratitude that my husband and I picked up and made a new home of Los Angeles. Because we listened to the inner voices, the knowing, and didn't pay heed to the stories of fear, scarcity, judgements and doubts, we have been led on an adventure! Irony has been a buzz word for me, especially the last six months, and honestly, LA is one of the biggest irony's I have experienced. LA was one of those, "We would never . . ." To that one could say, "They doth protest too much:" But alas, the Soul knows!
The beauty of eating our words, is that we have devoured the old voices so we can speak with a new truth. We absolutely love LA! We have been as surprised as anyone else who knows us. Yet it has been an amazing lesson in how many times we can feel so sure of something from one perception, and from another vantage point it may be a blindspot. We feel such a sense of expansion here. The creative energy is palpable. It holds life of all kinds, to every scale of highs and lows. The ocean, the flowers, the buzz of dreams, the hub of our cultures entertainment, the history of all who paved the way and blew our minds.
I Love LA ~ Randy Newman We are indeed still newbies, so we don't even mind the traffic ~yet! I am reminded almost daily of Randy Newman's song, (which I never really liked) "I Love LA" as I drive down the streets, the wind blowing through my hair . . . Oh! Wait, I am not really riding in that convertible, but the grin is ear to ear, singing the chorus all the same! For me, I have been surprised to realize that I feel more at home here in a way I haven't before, even my 20 years in the much adored city of Portland, Oregon.
There is so much candy for ego needing, doing, proving here. Fancies can be tickled in every direction. It ignites fires and imagination. It also smolders and burns for some. This city, the Universe and our trust has taken such good care of us this year. Every twist and turn has been perfection, which does not indicate getting exactly what is wanted, but being hyper aware we have received just what was needed. There is nothing that could have been planned more perfectly for our personal growth and spiritual evolution.
Though my belief has been solid for a long time, I have become more and more convinced and connected to the guidance of Soul. It is a wonderment to me! For me each new recognition of this perfection (especially after I have felt bewildered and lost), of how the necessary gift for deeper knowing has been provided. This sparkles and glitters in my eyes. The fire of learning becomes radiance from this heart. The eventual surrender becomes the wings of grace that lift me again into a new Self.
We have been blessed without a doubt. And it is wrong to assume that blessing always means easy. That is just like saying, love is always sweet. These blessings have been rained down as both water and fire. Each has their own purification properties. That which flies high eventually must come in for a landing. And to each I hold up gratitude, to Spirit, to Soul.
As I release 2012, I will carry as it's gifts: The celebration of dreams into life. A maturity I would have never have known without a prolonged sacrifice of my personal 'comfort.' An integrity from honing responsibilities that weren't 'desired.' Deep compassion from the eventual healing of deep judgements. The humbling in the presence of others vulnerabilities and vice verse. The grounding that results from too much energy and too little form. The honor, respect and love that expands in a spiritual marriage of opposites, in tight quarters. The sharing and learning when meeting kindred spirits in the least expected places. There are most assuredly more transformations percolating, however, their prime will be known perhaps as 2013 closes!
I lay myself more open as I enter 2013. The Trust and Faith of the Souls song, that has been experienced has shown me I can rely on it's intelligence, care, and guidance. These are not mere feelings or concepts to me, but qualities that are very alive within. I offer myself into these arms. This is a relationship, sacred and committed. I do my part and know that I can hold space for the gifts offered. I came in for a landing a couple of months ago, thankfully. This winter has been a season of quietude, prayer and meditation. Tonight, New Year's Eve, will follow suit. The new year will most certainly be ushered in while I float adrift in dream land.
I wish for you all the perfect 2013, the perfect routes for your hearts loving, for your expansion of consciousness, for your the divine flights, and for your Souls healing, deepening and integration.
Peaceful Blessings~
Lotus
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