When I have found myself in the throes of Right and True, it is seen to be beyond morals and values, as well as encompassing both the personal and impersonal. When we bring the action of non-preference into the mix it becomes a powerful dance of transformation.
In the last year I was living within a commitment I made and felt strongly about keeping. However, the reality of the situation was more stressful than anticipated for my internal terrain. The worst aspects of me came to life, albeit in my own private world. When I went to a friend for advice, he gave me some really valuable feedback. And his view that it was time to leave made perfect, logical sense. Yet, when would I check within, "What is right and true for this situation?" The inner voice continued to come through with, "Stay."
This was in no way, shape or form my preference. And this was no fault of the circumstances, it was all resting on my own inner edges. Although I wasn't clear on the 'why' I should stay, I also understood that sometimes things change, and I wanted it to make sense that it was time for me to let go. Knowing that the tide often shifts and commitments, though we may believe on the surface they should be written in stone, in a vaster reality, the 'right and true' of the moment may dictate something else. However, this wasn't the truth for me at this time. So, I listened within. Staying was the guidance. To some it may have appeared masochistic, yet when I weighed it out with the question, it felt, well, right and true.
"The Truth is the only thing you'll ever run into that has no agenda."
Adyashanti
Decisions can sometimes be muddled when they are approached from preferences, levels of comfort, or desires. This isn't to say that if something feels destructive, we should torment ourselves. AND there may also be times when there is more happening than meets the eye, even if it looks a little crazy! This is an example of each person's path holding a very unique way of traveling and learning. When we let go of the black and white, the wrong and right, we see each moment offering what is perfect. Perfection does not equal comfort.
When I seek inner guidance through the question of what is right and true, I find it is easier to recognize attachments, fears, control issues, resistance, or pain I am bringing on through my stories, regarding what I am wanting or not wanting. During this particular period of time, the pearls of wisdom I found was a maturity that sprung from deep sacrifice and a finely tuned integrity.
Although many inner uglies emerged (and released) which I wasn't proud of, I also found myself in moments of elation. There was a soulful recognition of the transformation happening within as I grew and viscerally experienced my own inner stretching into a much more solid person. There was a pearl that was cultivated in the friction of life at this time.
I invite you to join me in allowing this question, "What is right and true?" to be a resting place to clear away the muddle, to return to when the time for change may be surfacing, and when you need to see beyond your limited self.
In Deep Peace ~
No comments:
Post a Comment